Just thinking about you...

Net's back on, so I finally get to talk to Shi after 2 days! I felt so restless for those 2 days...constantly trying to fix the net on my own, plugging and re-connecting the cables etc, hoping that the net would miraculously fix itself and let me go online to talk to him again. Of course, miracles rarely occur, and when they do, they always transpire someplace else. They never really happened to me, so of course it didn't happen last night, too. Our 6-month anniversary is in 9 days (July 8). I can hardly believe that half a year has almost passed, that we have actually sustained for this long, and are still going on, stronger than ever. In the not-too-far past, if anyone were to tell me that he/she fell in love with someone before even meeting him/her, I'd look at him/her with the most bemused expression, and then dismiss him/her as a desperado.Seriously. Being in love with someone online? I'm pretty sure most of you don't buy that, too. It did happen anyway. Ironic, isn't it?

Amongst the two of us, Shi has always been the more expressive one. He could talk and express his feelings to me with complete ease, saying extremely mushy words genuinely and smoothly. When he first did that, I thought it sounded more poetic/scripted than earnest, and hence dismissed it as mushy boyfriend talk. However, as we got to know each other better, I realised that he's actually truly sincere about all his expressions of love, and not doing so just for the sake of being sweet. I love you baby. I'm the total opposite of him in this area, meaning I'd feel weird expressing my feelings for him in words other than a simple 'I love you'. It's really not in my nature to express them in super mushy words like..umm you got it. If I were to do so, it'd feel really..unnatural. However, I'm working on it, as it's a known fact that you should reassure your partner constantly that you're still in love with him/her, and the best way to do that is by expressing it in words/action. Since we are unable to express it in action much (due to the damned continents and superwide oceans that divide us), we should express it in words as often as possible. Hence, I'm working on expressing my feelings for him without weirding myself out. Thank you for being patient with me, baby.


I've been listening to this song neyo-because of you for days, because it's soooo so so good.

all because of you...and it's all because of you...
mmm...

I love the way it feels
I love the way you say sweet nothings...the way you sing me bedtime lullabies every night till i fell asleep...the way you never fail to comfort me whenever I'm down...or draw a smile on my face...

just kinda stuck between my fantasy and what is real
Sometimes it feels like you're a fantasy, so far yet so close, pixel yet real. If this is a dream, I don't ever wanna wake up...

I need it when I want it
I want you and I need you...

I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it
I'm so in love with you baby, and it aches sometimes, when I am having mindless chatter with you or am just doing anything, and then there's this sudden longing for you to magically appear by my side...

even If I did I don't know If I would quit but I doubt it
I'd never, ever quit

And I know this much is true
I know we're true..

baby you have become my addiction
you're on my mind 24/7, taking up my every thought... restless when you're not available...satiated when you are...tell me, isn't this an addiction?

I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move
but I like it
If I'm addicted to you, it's one addiction that I don't wish to give up on. In fact, I want to be caught deeper into it...; What's so bad about an addiction anyway? If it's study, it's dedication. If it's work, it's commitment. Hobby, passion. Religion, devotion. They're actually describing the same thing. People just use these synonyms in fear of evoking judgement. I love being addicted to you.

and it's all because of you
I love you so...

all because of you
I love you Shi. =3

never get enough ;)