Just thinking about you...

Net's back on, so I finally get to talk to Shi after 2 days! I felt so restless for those 2 days...constantly trying to fix the net on my own, plugging and re-connecting the cables etc, hoping that the net would miraculously fix itself and let me go online to talk to him again. Of course, miracles rarely occur, and when they do, they always transpire someplace else. They never really happened to me, so of course it didn't happen last night, too. Our 6-month anniversary is in 9 days (July 8). I can hardly believe that half a year has almost passed, that we have actually sustained for this long, and are still going on, stronger than ever. In the not-too-far past, if anyone were to tell me that he/she fell in love with someone before even meeting him/her, I'd look at him/her with the most bemused expression, and then dismiss him/her as a desperado.Seriously. Being in love with someone online? I'm pretty sure most of you don't buy that, too. It did happen anyway. Ironic, isn't it?

Amongst the two of us, Shi has always been the more expressive one. He could talk and express his feelings to me with complete ease, saying extremely mushy words genuinely and smoothly. When he first did that, I thought it sounded more poetic/scripted than earnest, and hence dismissed it as mushy boyfriend talk. However, as we got to know each other better, I realised that he's actually truly sincere about all his expressions of love, and not doing so just for the sake of being sweet. I love you baby. I'm the total opposite of him in this area, meaning I'd feel weird expressing my feelings for him in words other than a simple 'I love you'. It's really not in my nature to express them in super mushy words like..umm you got it. If I were to do so, it'd feel really..unnatural. However, I'm working on it, as it's a known fact that you should reassure your partner constantly that you're still in love with him/her, and the best way to do that is by expressing it in words/action. Since we are unable to express it in action much (due to the damned continents and superwide oceans that divide us), we should express it in words as often as possible. Hence, I'm working on expressing my feelings for him without weirding myself out. Thank you for being patient with me, baby.


I've been listening to this song neyo-because of you for days, because it's soooo so so good.

all because of you...and it's all because of you...
mmm...

I love the way it feels
I love the way you say sweet nothings...the way you sing me bedtime lullabies every night till i fell asleep...the way you never fail to comfort me whenever I'm down...or draw a smile on my face...

just kinda stuck between my fantasy and what is real
Sometimes it feels like you're a fantasy, so far yet so close, pixel yet real. If this is a dream, I don't ever wanna wake up...

I need it when I want it
I want you and I need you...

I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it
I'm so in love with you baby, and it aches sometimes, when I am having mindless chatter with you or am just doing anything, and then there's this sudden longing for you to magically appear by my side...

even If I did I don't know If I would quit but I doubt it
I'd never, ever quit

And I know this much is true
I know we're true..

baby you have become my addiction
you're on my mind 24/7, taking up my every thought... restless when you're not available...satiated when you are...tell me, isn't this an addiction?

I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move
but I like it
If I'm addicted to you, it's one addiction that I don't wish to give up on. In fact, I want to be caught deeper into it...; What's so bad about an addiction anyway? If it's study, it's dedication. If it's work, it's commitment. Hobby, passion. Religion, devotion. They're actually describing the same thing. People just use these synonyms in fear of evoking judgement. I love being addicted to you.

and it's all because of you
I love you so...

all because of you
I love you Shi. =3

never get enough ;)

So Restless

Pat's internet is down for the count =( It's been 2 days since I last spoken with her. It feels like it's been forever. Spent today sitting in front of my computer watching 08th MS Team. Hopefully her net will be connected soon. It's kinda silly how the majority of couples probably don't talk to each other everyday. But it feels so awkward and out of place without her in my life. Like even if we only do talk for an hour or it's one of those days we don't have much to talk about, it just feels out of place without being able to chat with her. I know this sounds kinda childish, but I guess I just enjoy her company so much xD. And to those who complain about how their bf/gf talks too much... Enjoy it! Cause you're gonna feel sad, bored and probably just as restless as I am right now when something happens one day and you don't get to speak to him/her when you wanted to. Cherish your time together.

I love you Pat, and I hope you get your net fixed soon, I also hope your days have been good :)

Bored? Try the new Orisinal Game! The Crossing

Ragnarok Online 2!

Thanks to my roomate and best friend Ed, me and him were able to get on the Korea RO2 Open Beta! Here Below are some screen shots from the testing and fun! :D

The Character Build Screen, Now you can customize hair style, hair color, brow style, brow color, eye style, and eye color! How the rest of your body appears is dependent on your equipment and armor.

My novice taking a yawn, this is automatic when you sit down for too long hehe

The new NPC's look so cute! (They also added a male kafra ewww...)

You can now swim underwater! Notice how you now have a breath gauge, run low on it and you'll start taking constant damage

Ninja of the night~ There's Daytime, Nightime, Dawn Noon and Dusk now too. And also weather effects like cloudy

Most of the game still has alot of bugs but that's to be expected of a beta. It doesn't look like it'll be coming out of beta anytime soon. Expect North American release to be earliest next year summer.

All in a day's work

So who needs bikini topped girls to wash thier cars for them this summer when you can do it yourself for free. I bet 99.99% of the guys are paying for the show and not the wash x). Anyways, after a long hard day of work at our house in West Newbury me and my step bro washed our dirt covered cars(yayyy). It's so troublesome having to drive 45 minutes every weekend to the old house just to renovate and get it ready to be sold. I really hope it's over with soon. But as I was help making the ad for the house I noticed how ridiculously expensive homes are these days. From the town's sewage system to the schools. Everything now impacts the price of your house. I remember our first house in Michigan when we bought it was around 140,000. When we sold it, it had already become 210,000. What's more ridiculous is our old house in Westborough, Mass. was around 160k starting price, only 4 years later, when we bought it from the original owners, the price had already shot up to 320k. and recently(just another 5 years later) the house sold for 440k.

Sure houses are convenient must they're a bitch to maintain. Which reminds me sometime next week I have to mow the lawn again. Which takes like a total of near 2 hours. Anyways, I'm glad I was able to get my car cleaned although it'll just get dirty in less than a day again. Must also bug mom for money to change my tires sometime before august too ... and crap inspection is due next month. :(

Pics:

Step Brother spraying his car with water

Me on my '95 civic hatchback

My car in all its glory

post your secrets? :o

I bumped into this super cool book a few days ago called 'PostSecret'. Basically, this guy Frank Warren started out by distributing self-addressed postcards to strangers on the streets, asking them to post them back to him anonymously with their secrets written on them. Since then, he has been receiving these postcards from people all over, and has since made a website for them too~! How cool ! Some of the things people write there are really sad...and some of them are so evil, and yet so human, at the same time.

Hmm...some sad ones that I can remember include things like 'I made myself pregnant to make him marry me', 'I am homeless and nobody knows (including family)', and 'I still love him/her (I'm married and have 5 kids)'. Okok i cied after reading all these T__T they're so touching ._. .Hey, I bet YOU will too >:o ~

Read em here yourself! http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ :3

I love you Shi <333 muahhh~

Oh oh and we watched this romance flick 'A walk to Remember', it's so so sooooo sweet and sad, hur T_T. This couple in the movie fell in love which each other, and the girl told the guy that she has leukemia. Knowing that his gf doesn't have many days left, he actually realises all her dreams, like building her a telescope and marrying her in a church o_o, so nice of him. He bought her a star too :o ... now that sounds sweet right? BUT don't you think it's like a scam? How would you know that this company doesn't sell the SAME star to like 9913910391031 people !? :P and how come we need to buy stars from them? What makes the stars 'theirs' in the first place? (I hope i'm not offending anyone who thinks that idea is cute ;o ). Anyway, the girl dies at the end of the movie :( .

And here's something random for the random people who like random stuffs o_o : On average, a human being will spend 2 weeks kissing in his/her lifetime. Taken from a Snapple Cranberry bottle cap =D . Isn't that amazing? You thought it's more than that don't you ? :P

Blog up and running!

phew, just got done with the header picture, added both me and my dear's name to it! I kinda wanted 2 songs for the site, but I'll stick to the Akon one x). Other choice woulda been the Canon Rock by Fun Two. Looking around at what other cool widgets are available and working on adding content to the blog as I wait for Pat to sign on~ She's such a sleepyhead~